Born again believer in October 2020, the Lord has changed my life and called me to ministry. I share about my journey as a new creation in Jesus Christ and how He has changed me as well as conversations with others about Jesus. My ultimate goal is to bring Jesus to people so that they may know of his saving grace. God is good!

In October of 2020, I was watching the world tumble into chaos on various levels. Covid was all over the news, there were scores of earthquakes, multiple volcano eruptions, and people looting, rioting and just flat out killing one another. Add to that, warnings of famine, rumors of wars, and don’t even get me started on the political mess in America. My anxiety was at an all-time high. I was searching for answers. Little did I know that the Almighty had His eye on me and was about to pluck me out of darkness and remove the scales from my eyes to reveal the sinful nature of this fallen world and His glorious divinity.

My lifestyle at the time was one very much set in the world. I was into paganism and witchcraft, something I used to try and gain control of my personal life. My roommates were two gay men. I attended drag shows, went to bars, and escaped the anxieties of life with video games or Netflix for hours on end. When I wasn’t wasting hours doing that, I would do more productive “fun” things. I was an amateur hacker. I knew enough to get myself into trouble, but not out of it. I was divorced, and had no job, no car, no real friends and no one to talk to. I rarely slept and when I did, my dreams were unsettling. I was alone and determined that I didn’t need anyone. I had myself and my cat and I was going to make the most of it.

One day I found myself in the hospital for mental health. I had checked myself in due to stress and anxiety and perhaps even a bit of paranoia because of certain things I was involved in at the time. I wasn’t on any medications or drugs. I was not drinking. But I felt intense fear and I knew I needed to talk to someone, but I didn’t know who. I was convinced someone was after me. That I was in trouble.

At one point, I was placed in a room for privacy and had multiple people to talk to but I felt strongly I wasn’t supposed to talk to anyone there. They asked me who I wanted to talk to, asked for a name. The only name that came to mind was “YHWH”. (Yahweh) I can say right now that they looked as confused as I felt. Why did that name come to mind? I was led back to my chair and left to my thoughts and began calling on this name of God that I knew in my heart. Looking back I am guessing I knew the name from some studies of Christianity but it was nothing learned in Sunday school. I began seeking Him in earnest. I wanted to know for a fact if He was real. I wanted to know if He even cared about me. I wanted to know the Truth of everything that was going on. I was scared, confused, broken, hurting. And I was angry.

He answered. The Almighty Creator answered me. I heard Him in my head. I heard Him in my heart. There was even a moment when I heard Him audibly and His voice sounded like a whisper of rushing water. There were moments of disbelief and He made Himself known to me in tangible ways. Every time I had a doubt, thinking I must be going crazy, He reinforced the fact that He really was real and He really did care. He showed me in the most loving of ways the error of the path I was on. He patiently allowed me to be angry and then convicted me of all the ways I had sinned against Him. From being promiscuous, to being involved in the occult and everything in-between. I repented of all of it, promising to never go back to it. I wanted absolutely nothing to do with any of it anymore. There was no condemnation in this process, only conviction. He showed me abundant mercy and grace in His forgiveness. He made a point to tell me I was His top priority. That I was valuable to Him despite all I had done. All He wanted was for me to give up control. To completely surrender to His will and He would help me out of the mess I had made of my life. I was overwhelmed by His love. I was overwhelmed by the fact that God cares.

He asked me if I would follow Him and I instantly said yes. I surrendered. I gave up control. I wanted nothing more.  

 Then He asked me if I would work for Him. I said yes to that too. I would do anything for the One who had set me free. He told me He wanted me to tell everyone about Him. So that’s why I am here now; to tell you that He is real. God is real. Jesus is real.

I want you to know that He can set you free too.  Since I have committed my life to Christ, He has been faithful to restore much of what has been destroyed in my life. I am happy. I am mostly anxiety free in this world of chaos. He even healed me from diabetic nephropathy instantly.  He is healing my broken heart, teaching me to trust and building my faith in Him every day. I have friends, a family in Christ.

Jesus died for us that we may be set free from the burden of sin. All you have to do is Repent and accept this gift which is freely given. Once you have truly repented and truly turned from your lifestyle of sin, you will be made a new creature. It is called being “Born Again.” God will change your sinful desires and you will desire righteous things. Good things. He will help you and with His help, you cannot fail. Seek Jesus. Seek him with all your heart. He will change your life.

We are not promised tomorrow. Make a choice to follow Jesus today.